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I think I'm turning 53

I think I'm turning 53, I think I'm turning 53, I really think so. Name that tune!

It's my birthday tomorrow. Thank you, thank you. I've had some odd thoughts about aging percolating through my beady brain recently, kicked off by the experience of buying a new pair of jeans last week only to discover that my memory of how much my waist has shrunk in the past year was off by two inches. Let me tell you, it was quite a shocker when I put the jeans on and they were way too small. Wuh-hut?! I'd been joking for months that I was probably never going to get back to my old jean size, which was two inches smaller than that, feeling smug that I'd even made it down to the size I thought I had.

This made me think about how all summer I was feeling all buff and shapely and probably exposing more of my skin that was completely appropriate as I worked on the back of the house in the hot sunshine. I blame these randy feelings on the fact that I'm in better shape than I have been for a decade but still haven't really digested the reality that I'm, well, almost 53 years old, with a paunch that's somewhat reduced now but isn't really ever going to go away again. Oh, the vanity!

It has helped a little, in an odd way, to watch a couple of Luis Buñuel movies in the past week: Belle de Jour and Tristana. Both of them are about the impossible dreams of desire, and about the masochistic pleasures of being denied one's desires. Buñuel almost makes the world I live in make sense. Or at least he has a nice sense of humor about the fact that the world makes less sense the older you get. How can it be that I was so much smarter when I was younger?

Well, I continue to hope that I can find a way to age gracefully. First step: don't wear those dream pants!



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Sep. 18th, 2013 04:09 pm (UTC)
"Turning Japanese", of course.
Sep. 18th, 2013 04:38 pm (UTC)
And I can't get it out of my head now!
Sep. 18th, 2013 06:55 pm (UTC)
Two years ago on holiday we heard distant music and wandered in search of the source. We found an excellent pub with a kids' play area, decent beer (Bays Gold) and running a hog roast. Out back was a band working their way through one hit wonders such as Echo Beach, My Sherona and yes, Turning Japanese by The Vapours. This damn spelling checker wants to say different but they were British so there's a U in there.

PS Ha! You're older than me! Happy Birthday R.
Sep. 18th, 2013 06:57 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Shirley you could change your spellchecker default to British orthography?
Sep. 18th, 2013 08:00 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday!

When I was young'n'skinny, my pants measurements were a square (28x28 or something thing like). When I started gaining weight, all I remembered was that they were a square, and I think I got all the way up to 34x34 before I realized I didn't have to buy pants that needed to be rolled up into huge cuffs.
Sep. 18th, 2013 08:09 pm (UTC)
Ha! I love it! Brains are always good for the unintentional comedy.
Sep. 19th, 2013 05:49 pm (UTC)
Happy birthday!
Sep. 21st, 2013 04:06 am (UTC)
I sent greetings via email and Facebook on Thursday, but somehow missed your LJ posting. Happy evening of the day after your Birthday!

People keep telling me I've lost weight and I keep having concrete realities in the world remind that, really, I haven't lost all that much. Like belt holes and stuff. But hey, I've outlived my namesake by 12 days now! Maybe if I go on a raw foods diet, I might live to a ripe old. Maybe.

Hang in there, dude -- you definitely appear to be aging more gracefully than me! But heck, what are friends for anyway, if we can't help make you look good into the bargain.

Edited at 2013-09-21 04:07 am (UTC)
Sep. 21st, 2013 04:44 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Ron. Aging seems to be a messy process, so perhaps the trick is to learn how to be messy gracefully.
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